My blog have been vacant for past 2 years plus.. So many things have happened and changed.. I am turning 26 this year already.. Time really flies when you are out working in the society.. I thought certain things will not change but i am wrong.. Human change........ What can i say.... I have no idea where to start too..

Ever since i left F&B industries, i joined SMRT doing administrative works.. My life started changing to the better.. I got my perfect rest day on the weekends, i share the same public holiday with everyone.. I can concentrate in my studies more better now..

I have being through 3 semesters so far in my degree studies.. very glad that everything went smoothly and pass all 9 modules with pretty satisfied result.. now i left with 7 more modules.. gonna struggle through all the remaining major modules.. intend to take only 2 modules in my coming semester.. partially also because financially a bit difficult for me to cope.. with my new house renovation on the move and also preparation for my wedding banquet, money goes out fast and don't come in fast enough.. but i realise that by working hard, your result may not come in good in a bureaucratic company.. even if my 2 direct superior gave me a "Outstanding" grade, at the end of the day after calibration i only got a "Average" which is a 2 grade down.. end up i did not receive a good bonus.. I was still thinking with the bonus, i could use it on a lot of stuffs.. It will definitely come in handy at this period of time.. oh well, my bonus dun seem to have much different from what i got in F&B.. take it or leave it.. so be it.. be contended.. that is what i think..

Looking through some of my past post.. i realise how negative i was back then.. Back then i am a young and innocent girl that hope to be love.. Now?? I am still young and innocent of coz.. haha!! I am definitely being love by a great man.. I am got married to my lovely husband Charlton Mah on 31 December 2013.. I knew him in my Poly days.. things happen here and there and end up we become together.. i still remember last time i had a crush with one of the guy and he was there trying to help me with it.. i don't know why but when i am with him, i can basically speak everything!! vulgarity also!! i did not know why i am so relax with him.. end up me and that guy did not work out  and somehow here and there i become kinda rely on him.. I still remember that time he was "tangle" with a girl who is his gf at that time.. to me, i felt that "oh no.. he cannot get back together with her anymore.." i don't know izzit my own selfishness telling me that or what.. I just want him to accompany me.. with Jack Neo movie, it determine everything.. and i realise that maybe we could try it out.. and here goes.. we are married after dating since 17 Aug 2008.. dating or 5 years plus... that consider pretty long i guess.. he treat me really good and i am happy with him around.. he is not rich.. he is not handsome.. but he have a heart fully just for me.. he always put me in the first place.. he also treat me very well.. what can i ask for more?? he is the man for me isn't it?? We will be walking together for many many many more years.. I know i will be happy with him..

Well, that is a summary of my life.. what else?? hmmm.. recently this come across my mind.. "People Change, Memory Don't" why do i say that?? while looking back, i have so many friends.. rephrase, so many that seem like my friends.. but actually?? i only need a handful of "friends".. my real friends.. people that i used to hang out with, they do not exist anymore in my current stage of life anymore.. is not that i forget them, but they had forgotten me.. looking back.. i hang out with my so call buddy michael and terry.. we work together, school together.. we really so close.. but now?? i am not in their circle anymore.. i have no idea what happened.. i still remember when i got into accident in year 2009, they said nothing to me.. i don't see any form of concern from them anymore.. maybe they have move on with their life and forget about me.. as time goes by, we do not contact each other anymore.. we had become a "friend" in facebook.. recently Michael got married and i am not invited to the wedding.. i wonder, who am i?? i keep telling myself, he is just being selfish.. just because i did not buy any insurance from him therefore i am not his friend anymore.. but the pain just don't go off.. i saw the pictures taken in his wedding.. people that he hardly hang out with were invited.. so i wonder, why am i not invited?? i decided to move on.. this is because people change as time goes by.. even if i remain at the same spot, they will not be back to who there were anymore.. so, i wish you have a blissful marriage.. and those memory, i will still keep it.. because i treasure it..

i also know amount those people around me.. who is my friends.. who is my true friends.. you guys is enough for me.. <3 p="">
anyway, had a rather bad day at work today.. ya ya.. back to complaining about work.. got rather bad scolding from 2 sub-con today.. in a row!!! can you imagine that.. and guess what?? Eric my secondary classmate for 5 years!! he is my sub-con also!! but he is not the one that scolding me of coz.. when he call back again after i get an earful i cried.. he panic when he heard i cry.. keep finding other topics and talk to me.. and ask me don't mind that too much.. take it easy.. well well.. the guy that always irritate me in class, becoming like this?? haha~ a bit not use to it.. but really appreciate it.. Thank Eric.. you really damn irritating at times.. but *thumbup* for you this time round.. and i will never forget all those days u bullied me!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha..

life still must go on right.. today i just wanna stay in my comfort zone and just hide there.. wanna take some time off and really "heal" myself.. once i get over with it, i know i will get stronger.. stronger than ever.. <3 p="">