haiz.... i need a break.... i wan to run away from home... i really dun wan to stay at this useless home anymore... one wave after another.. work now finally get stable a little bit.. now my family giving me lots of problems again..
you promise me again and again.. "i wun gamble anymore..." who knows u still gamble a not?!?! but wat i know is that u never learn ur lesson.. HOW MANY TIME YOU WAN TO DISAPPOINT ME THAN YOU WILL LEARN YOUR LESSON?!?!?! i am so piss off again and again.. cry alone in my room again and again.. i really dun know u anymore..
just not long ago.. ur ex-gf help u... she loan you money.. to pay all ur 6 credit card loan.. 30k-40k... who can earth can help you pay ur debt!!! and now?!?! after u promise to change over a new leaf.. another 4 more credit card letter appear in our letterbox.. i really had enough of all this.. i am really very tired already...
previously.. because of all ur debt.. all because of money... you wan to divorce mom.. because of money.. you threaten to kill me.. because of money.. you throw all the furniture away.. because of money.. you dun wan ur family.. because of money.. u ruin the whole family.. because of money.. u make mom cry everyday.. because of money.. u no longer a dad to ur daughter.. because of money.. you can sacrifice everything.. because of money... you dun wan ur family... ALL BECAUSE OF THIS DAMN FUCKING MONEY!!!!
i dun trust u anymore.. all because of wat u did.. i really.. cannot make myself to trust u anymore.. i bet u already forget wat happen just few months back.. ya.. i called police to catch my own father.. he threaten to throw me down the flat.. he is insane.. all because of money.. the police give him warning.. if he ever go insane again.. the police will arrest him.. all this?!?! he forgot?!?!
i scold.. i cry.. i beg.. i do all i can.. i do everything that i can do.. just hope that he will become my dad again.. but he... just break my heart every single time.. i shed enough tears just for him.. i really very very tired.. somebody.. pls tell me wat to do.. why must i born here to go thru this stage.. why must him do this to the whole family.. wtf he wan!!! is gambling so important to him?!?! if he is not gambling.. DEN WHY IS HE TAKING LOAN FROM THE BANK!?!?!?! 4 credit card!!! imagine 1 card can loan 6k... 4 card is already 24k!!! wat he really wan!!!!! ARGHHH!!!
a leopard cannot change its spot!!!! he wun change right?? no matter how hard i try.. he will never change right?? i cry.. also no use right?? but why... i dun understand.. T.T i feeling so miserable.. i really dun know wat to do anymore.. how long more can i still handle this!?!?! i scare i will go insane when i am at my limit.. T.T
Y....to be continueY 2:51 am
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*1* Go oversea community service at Thailand in Sept 10th - 23th
*2* Successful for IAP and not IHP
*3* Learn how to play a guitar?!?!
*4* Open a chalet for my 21st birthday
*5* Complete 5000pcs of jigsaw puzzle
*6* Get car licence
*7* Get a new pet maybe
*8* Get an in ear earpiece
*9* Get Guitar Strings
*10* Get a Capo
*11* Master "Missing You" guitar tab
*12* Clear Year 3, 1st Semester
*13* See "Leo" constellation
*14* See Vega and Altair Star
*15* Get Samsung OMNIA i900
*16* Clear my common test!!
*17* Clear all my tutorial and group work for year 3 1st semester
*18* Get my health to the better
*19* To get autograph album from Steve
*19* Steve 2nd singing songs
20* Learn how to protect myself
*21* Learn to be strong
*22* Find a new job
*23* Taste chocolate from all over the world
*24* Successful complete my 2nd scarf for steve
*25* Manage to send a parcel to Australia
*26* Clear my Common Test (RPS, MT&NDT)
*27* Get neccessary items for steve parcel
*28* Successful complete my 3rd scarf for Xadrian
*29* To meet up with "you"
*30* To go Japan
*31* To go Korea
*32* Get my bicycle repaired
*33* Get puzzle frame for my Stars Puzzle
*34* Knit new scarf pattern
*35* Break new record for bowling - 5 Strike in a row
*36* Break new record for bowling - score > 159
*37* Know how to spin the bowling ball
*38* Get a bowling set for my own
*39* Knit my 4th scarf for Hui Ling =DD
*40* Get red colour yard for me =DD
*41* Knit my 5th scarf for Violet
*42* Knit my 6th scarf for myself
*43* Earn my first $1 million
*44* Clean up my room stars
*45* Steve 3rd singing songs =DD
*46* Steve 4th singing songs
*47* Steve make one song just for me =DD
*48* Steve 5th singing songs
*49* Celebrate my 20th birthday
*50* Hair grow back longer
*51* Get a new star hair clip
*52* Get a PSP
*53* Get a drum stick (Not eat that one! Is play de!)
