seem like today is a terrible day for me?? on the way home, tat discipline master(DM) called me.. like what Willie said, he keep say nononononono~ simple thing he keep there complain this and that.. why i so unlucky?? why i kanna tat school?? in the end?? important msg he didnt tell me... so *curse and swear* sia.. ytd i was on fire.. all becoz of this DM.. so what if de school is gd?? his attitude and personality FAILED!! simple manners also dun have..
den after finish talking, i found out that my Sushi gone.. i cant find it.. my heart breaking.. that Sushi mean so much to me.. now mine gone, what does it mean?? i keep stare my phone.. but i cannot find.. i dun kw where it drop.. sad for the whole day.. yet?? haiz.. my day still super terrible..
MIA from SBF for 1 week.. today finally go back post.. haiz.. seem like is not my day.. end up i was crying in front of my lappy.. just feel that kelvin went kinda over.. i just feel that my reputation kinda ruin.. i dun wanna to have link with yahoo.. totally dun wan to have any close link.. end up?? i was crying quite badly here.. haiz.. still tot of taking a nap.. but now.. dun think i can bah.. haiz.. just got de feeling of getting a bottle of alcohol.. it being a while since i last drink.. since i not a drinker, 1 bottle is enough for me..
who can understand me?? who kw wat kind of situation i am in?? who can protect me from all the harm?? i am not strong.. i not wat i look.. being tall and big size dun mean i am strong.. i am weak.. i am more weaker den u imagine.. i am so fragile.. may break anytime.. wat should i do to be brave?? how long can i still hold on?? i am tired.. so tired.. so tired till i can slp for the next million years.. once slp, and never can wake up..
i wanted to see de sky.. wanted to see de stars.. wanted to have some air outside.. i dun feel good.. i am sad.. i dun wish to be lock up in my room and stare wall.. those stars on my wall aint real.. those smile on my face aint real.. and me?? am i real?? how wish i could be me.. and not wat others wan me to be.. just wanna to find some happy time.. i miss the beach.. i miss the nite sky.. haiz.. =(
