伍家辉 - 我疯你在脸上轻浮 味道有点苦从不说情话 你不爱我吗想让你有自由 却把心弄丢你不爱我吧 借口多说都是假
我疯你 别让我说得太多我疯你 别让我错的太多我疯你 别让我错的太多 Ahh~ Wu Ohh Ohh~我疯你 别让我活得太多我疯你 会让我失去太多 Wu~ Ohh~ Ohh~ Ohh~well.. was kinda addicted to Wu Jia Hui songs recently.. above lyrics is i hear myself den write out de.. haha.. clever?? hope no error.. hehe.. Michael managed to get his album songs for me.. Thx papa.. he keep ask me dun call him papa.. so.. call him da ge hao leh la.. haha.. Michael is just like a da ge ge to me.. he's caring.. haha.. about the DHL service is alright la.. haha.. after all only 1 person i allow to do delivery service to me.. haha.. but very happy la.. thx you for your concern..
today is a terrible day!! why i say so?? last nite went over to kelvin hse.. guess wat?? movie marathon again!! haha.. from my previous post, tat i update from kelvin house, already mention abt movie marathon liao ma.. haha.. hmm.. let me recap wat happen last nite.. after i update my previous post, i went into de hall to watch tv.. well.. Channel U showing Jackie Guess Show.. Wo Cai Wo Cai Wo Cai Cai Cai.. watch and watch.. den i soon get a little bit tired.. so i took my ipod from kelvin room carefully hope not to wake Sherlin up.. den i ly on de sofa and hear my songs lo.. dun kw when they will be back.. so just wanna catch some rest.. oh well.. i tot i slept.. but after i check thru my ipod song list, nah.. i wasnt slp at all!!! coz i remember hearing all de songs.. maybe just close eyes rest tat kind.. hmmmm.. jB did called my phone.. asking about i wanna eat or not.. but i didnt notice my phone vibrating.. was with my ipod in my ear all the while.. so end up jB called Ah Min..
So i went back to ly on the sofa.. well.. kinda emo actually.. got a little bit of tears came out from my eyes.. maybe just the yawning bah.. i dun kw.. but did wanna cry when see the news in China.. a mother wrote an SMS to her baby.. translate, "if you still alive, i wanna let u kw.. i love u.." gosh.. i saw this i cry out!! really very very sad la!! T.T haiz.. oh well.. when i sense de tears in my eyes, michael came in and put food on the table.. oh well.. they are back home.. aiyo!! michael ye zhen shi de.. wun soft a bit.. never see we resting here.. haha.. oh well..
jB actually brought chicken wing rice for me.. but den.. i took his porridge instead.. like wat i said, jB aint tat tot-ful enough.. mixing with him recently and he didnt even take notice i have sick for so long.. =.= since sick haven recover, and in tat stuffy room, throat really feel very bad.. and now?? my cough got worst again.. haha!! tot i recover leh.. but now become worst again.. den watch movie lo.. watch watch watch.. den ask kelvin to get me plain water.. haha.. tat smooth my throat a lot.. but den.. kinda cannot catch my breath.. wonder why.. recently got problem breathing.. breath much harder den usual.. i think maybe sick.. tat why bah.. haiz.. my health ar.. really damn bad..
hmmm.. first movie.. tat title i forget leh.. but is a female fighter.. i think Singapore gonna show soon.. tat show aint bad.. tat girl fighting skill not bad wor!! really interesting.. haha.. den.. we watch.. "21" is a show about counting and poker cards.. well.. i still dun understand those counting thingy.. dun even kw wat the heck is tat!! haha.. but it doesnt concern me anyway.. dun think i will go casino gamble also.. not those type of people.. aint rich also!! HAHA!! maybe in the future go play play for fun also can.. hmmmm.. let me see.. den.. we watch "Flood".. but watch for 30min den i go off leh.. coz is morning!! got work at 7am.. so jB send me home.. didnt talk to jB for the whole journey.. maybe i aint in the mood to talk also bah.. in my mind was thinking a lot of stuff.. so much till i dun even kw where am i.. the night is sure cold!! coz i never bring my jacket along ma.. but still ok.. still can take it.. maybe kinda Xi Guan liao ba??
one thing tat i kinda mind is tat jB asking me to try be other people pillion.. hmmmm.. i totally cannot agree with it.. maybe i got my own reason for not being other people pillion bah.. dun wanna take my life as a toy.. wan it den treasure.. dun wan it den anyhow.. maybe i dun really treasure my life well.. but not the stage where i anyhow la.. oh well.. sometime really dun understand wat jB is thinking also.. he got so much thinking in his mind that sometime i dun kw he is using which character.. maybe de "aura" i feel is different bah..
hmmmm.. after i reach home, stare my wall a while, den change and went to mac.. oh well.. thinking of eating something first b4 i start work.. coz my gastric aint feeling that gd since at kelvin house.. didnt bring along my gastric pill also.. always bring my pills to school.. but when i need it i always never carry it with me.. gosh.. tat wat usually happen rite?? haha.. when u need it, it will never be there.. even pill also wanna surprise me.. haha.. oh well.. the night is SO HOT!! i am sweating over here.. hmmmm.. keep listen this song.. "Wo Feng Ni".. well.. the songs tat i mention above.. keep replay and play.. really like this song.. like the feeling.. hehe.. like de music.. like the notes.. *sing* Wo Feng Ni~~~~~ Bie Rang Wo Shuo De Tai Duo~~~~~~ hahahaha..
oh well.. as wat i was saying.. went to work, eat something first.. but den.. i didnt finish my food.. haiz.. just got 1 bite on the Egg Muffin and tat it.. cannot eat leh.. but manage to finish my Hashbrown.. got myself a limenade also.. haiz.. wat to do.. waste food.. never even clear my dinner just now.. was so hungry!!!!! but den i just cannot finish my food.. hmmm.. appetite just suddenly gone.. maybe i thinking too much liao ba.. tat why no appetite.. or maybe because i am sick.. tat why.. plus the weather is so terrible!!! think my sickness will get even worst..
i have such a hard time working!!! didnt get a wink last nite.. wat to do.. recently mac de job.. is really getting more and more tough.. dun really work for the pay, but den.. now think about it, the pay really dun match with the job done.. haiz.. think i will be quitting soon.. dun really can take it.. under too much stress recently.. i still got 2 formal reports to rush.. and Wednesday is event day.. haiz.. need to go to tat damn school.. and tat DM didnt tell me anything about wat time the bus go or wat.. than wat should i do sia.. really so piss off by him.. haiz.. den Tuesday need to go to ACM.. man.. STRESSSSSSSS!! today really work like bull.. i be runner today.. and really RUN all over the place.. lucky i never done anything wrong.. oh.. maybe got one.. just trying to cut open de coffee powder bag, and BOMB.. some of the coffee powder end up in my shirt.. oh well.. maybe due to the air pressure inside bah.. man.. really so bad lo!! today not tat much people.. but den super busy.. and i keep die die wanna keep in my standard.. everytime de timing so high.. so this time round i die die ask them to keep it below 100.. manage to did it.. but den behind kinda clash.. my mind cannot think.. my mind cannot work.. dun kw wat i doing.. just wanna catch my breath and do things rite.. doing the right things and doing the things right is so different la.. haiz.. was so stress up and tired till i there wave white flag.. in the end got to swap with Yu Ying.. coz she see me really tooooo stress up leh.. so i be de order taker.. manage to pull thru everything.. was keep running non stop for 3hours!! can imagine how hard my life is?!?! lol.. maybe is not tat hard compare to others la.. but to me, without any rest, and chiong all the way.. is really hard la.. plus i sick.. oh well.. dun wanna find anymore excuses leh..
got my manager to let me off early.. tat little bit early la.. 30min earlier.. when i reach home, oh well.. no ppl at home.. i get all my clothes ready and go took a bath.. ahhhhhhh~ feel so nice after taking a bath.. smell nice.. mood nice.. and the next time i kw, BOMB!!!! i K.O. on my bed leh.. was in a totally different sleeping position.. haha.. i sleep up side down.. and to side way.. lol.. but soon after i fall a sleep.. my irritating brothers came back home.. i think he went to the market with my mom.. cant he see i am sleeping!!! hmmmm.. never close my door.. so.. oh well.. nvm.. see i sleeping there.. he keep at there shout "got your letter.. oi oi.. got letter.." wa lao eh.. i totally no energy to reply him.. so i just continue close my eyes and slp.. mama see me like dead pig so ask brother to keep his mouth shut and leave me alone.. hmmmm.. i slept for about 5 hours like tat?? woke up abt 5pm.. got weird dream.. but i now dun remember wat dream i have la.. just kw is very weird de dream.. *cough cough cough* got very bad cough again.. haiz..
hmmmm.. tummy dun really feel well.. gastric kinda act up again just now.. i think not gastric bah.. dun kw wat kind of pain is this.. only kw tat time i got this pain in the bus tat time on the way to school.. and the next thing i kw, i almost fainted in the bus.. my eyes actually white out.. i almost grab the guy next to me for support lo.. lucky i still "strong" enough.. still remember when i get off the bus i almost fall down.. coz my leg sooooo JELLY!!! dun kw why.. first time in my life i ALMOST fainted.. and i REALLY fainting tat time.. and first time in my life cold sweat!!! haha.. *cough cough* arghhhhhh.. feel so sick.. cough non stop..
seem like a long post for me.. actually wanna to write more.. but i am at lost now.. dun kw wat to write also.. i dun kw wat i wan.. wat is my future like.. will i even have a future?? i dun even kw.. life is really so hard.. need to endure all these alone is really so hard.. sometime just hope got people beside me to push me.. to motivate me.. to cheer for me.. trying to be position all the time.. but there is time where i totally not myself.. i cant be myself.. i dun kw who i am.. i can be cheerful all the way.. being happy and cheerful is my character.. but being emo and sad is also my character.. trying my best not to show my emo side to others.. choose to endure alone.. oh well.. all these years, i have being enduring all along... alone... come to think of it, those boyfriends i used to have.. none of them acutally can help me to lessen my stress and pain.. but the pain they cause me is really big.. wat to do???? alone endure it.. can say i already lost faith in guys.. there is really toooo much jerk out there.. but wat to do?? i hang out with guys most of the time.. my character suit to hang out with guys more den gals.. guys is much more easier to understand compare to gals.. plus i grow up in a guys family.. more or less i still feel comfortable mixing with guys.. but den.. guys can be such a danger to me.. "Learn how to open your eyes and see".. Herman keep telling me this.. in fact, everyone telling me this.. man.. my eyes is not big in the first place.. plus i am so blur and clumsy!! when i am alone and chill mood, my character is like a super mature lady.. tat usually happen at nite.. at nite time i become very quiet.. quiet and mature.. but in the day time, i am just like a kid.. smiling everywhere i go.. blur blur everywhere i go.. the only time tat i can think is at nite.. this is the time tat my real character shows up.. well.. not real or fake character.. maybe is just my original character bah.. people normally see my day time character.. they dun kw much about my nite time character.. both is me.. but both is different.. different ruby..
haiz.. wish to sit by the beach.. where the nite sky filled with stars shine upon me.. just quietly sit there.. really dun wish to see the sun up so fast.. normally when the sun up, the dream i am in will be waken.. the sun force me to come back to reality.. cruel world!! i like nite time.. still remember tat time i sit by the beach alone.. a distance from my fren.. the breeze is cold.. so cold till i hope somebody can just hug me there.. haha.. oh well.. watever.. *slap slap* wake up~ haha.. to be a person that i hope to become.. really so hard.. haiz.. my post is so long.. so long never write so long de post leh.. there is so much i wanna say out.. but i dun kw start from where.. nite time, with me alone in my room.. without and disturbance from outside.. with the stars shining brightout my window.. this is the life i wan.. i suppose??
always wanted to have a house.. when i ly on my bed, i can see all the stars.. and i can see the pretty sky to bed.. but everytime when i have such tot, haiz.. other stuff will pop into my mind.. how to clean de glass?? wat if a bird fly pass and poo and de poo poo drop on the glass?? what if got heavy rain and the glass break?? or will it have alien or something drop on it suddenly??? liew.. all these really ruin my perfect tot of my pretty stars!!! ROAR!! oh well.. everything have their pros and cons rite.. maybe automatic pop up de bah.. haha.. being writing my blog for 1hour leh.. sometime it feel so gd to be blogging without anything in my surrounding to disturb me.. oh well.. gonna have a nice rest.. and start my stressful life tml.. really need to clear a lot of stuff tml.. haiz.. who can help me destress?? wanna have chocolate.. yet my throat dun allow me to.. this cannot tat cannot.. haiz.. si le suan le.. T.T stress la!!! HOW TO DESTRESS!!!!! i cant take stress as dessert..
"STRESSED" and "DESSERTS" is just de opposite.. haiz.. say is like tat say la.. but how to really take stress as dessert?? really kinda stress out.. not kinda.. is REALLY STRESS OUT!! *cough cough* so stress till i dun kw wat to do.. headache.. dun wish to think so much.. trying to enjoy... but CANT!! SO HARD!! T.T wat to do????
This is another songs tat i like.. "Sui Rang Wo Yuan Yi".. this is de songs tat my blog put previously.. haha.. this songs also can be heard sometime at the ending of the 9pm show on Channel 8.. hehe.. really like it.. how about u??
伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意请让我靠近你轻轻对你说别让我每个夜为你受折磨是多么不容易才默默放手为了我就当作这次为了我别让我因为你被回忆折磨而空气凝结了我们的脸孔我别无选择
就算我们之间有什么问题依然想念着你 虽然被放弃虽然我愿意就算我们之间有什么难题黑夜我还想着你心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意(心还想着你) 
