oh well.. got a pretty bad nitemare last night.. 1 hour.. really nitemare!! hmmmm.. de dream was like.. me and yiyi wanna sot of save 2 kids.. but.. some how i am maple de sin.. den some how still show yiyi my stars and golve... kinda lame i know.. den.. yiyi offer me a glove.. but den.. tat glove too small.. and my glove lvl is more higher compared to him.. so i never take.. den i start to jump and shoot de stars.. ehhh.. dun kw why.. i jump.. accidentally knock onto yiyi.. den he was super angry.. den become like msn chatting de box.. some how he scolding me abt knocking onto him..

didnt kw i am so blur in my dream too.. anyway.. den.. i remember tat i super sad.. coz got scolded.. hmmmm.. den after tat.. tat 2 kids.. said something.. de msn chatting box some how become paper.. "ruby.. you are so useless.. just a burden.." something like tat bah.. after i see that.. i tear de paper.. i cried so badly.. even cry out with sound.. after tat.. my alarm ring.. i woke up.. i touch my face.. there is no tears.. but.. in my dream.. i really can feel the pain..

tummy still not getting any better today.. mood also down.. feeling gonna put in each individual box properly and not anyhow open de box.. feeling is mine.. and i gonna prevent it from getting any hurt.. just live the way i wanted.. and everything will be fine.. i hope??

feel like writing a life journal wor.. write everything that happen to me into a story.. haha.. hmm.. see how bah.. hmmm.. this 2 days.. in school.. i so hardworking.. in class keep take notes.. so hardworking till my fren also surprise.. take note and listen in class macham top students.. really wanted to score well for this semester.. and not let myself down.. oh well.. de fear back again.. fear of unknown people.. tml IS, i will be in a class that i totally dun kw anyone.. my classmates and friends, none of them same class with me.. seem like i gonna meet new ppl again.. hope i can get along with them well.. but i am scare.. scare being alone.. wat to do leh.. live with it bah..