haiz.. seem like i always get targeted.. i so nice to bully ar?? haiz.. seem like so wor.. gosh~ gonna cry again~ think back about my sad past le.. haiz.. since when was i last bullied?? ehh~ this evening.. ya.. haiz.. wat to do le.. born to be bully.. is not i wan to think this way wor.. is that no matter how i do.. i always being targeted.. noisy, get target.. quiet, get target.. be myself or not, i still get targeted..

"i will do my best for myself" that is wat Xadrian said.. for me? i seem like doing best for others instead of myself.. example, copy notes for others.. i tend to write more neat compare to my own notes.. i will save for best for others instead of myself.. i got a question in my mind.. so i asked Xadrian.. "will you have a period of time where you feel ppl dun appreciate u??".. well he said all de time.. well.. me too.. Whenever i do something that hope can cheer people up.. or something for others.. i really hope they appreciate it.. but.. a lot of time.. i feel tat ppl just using me or wat.. they dun appreciate wat i do.. but just pouring cold water..

i wanna do my stuff to de best also.. no matter is planning event or wat.. i just wanna make it tat everyone is happy.. but.. i dun wanna do stuff that will gone into drain.. T.T haiz.. emo le.. crying at this time... haha.. haiz.. dun kw wat to write.. blank..