never slp.. 1 day.. i never slp.. i got so much to talk abt.. i dun kw what happening to me.. me is like not me.. i just shoot everything out.. i dun kw why!! normally i wun dare.. coz i scare.. but.. i just shoot all out.. we have a long chat.. the longest chat ever.. we both stay up till morning.. a day i can never forget.. coz.. i grow up again.. i got brave.. listen to my blog song.. is by Babyface. the song title is call "Reason For Breathing".. this song just suit me now.. i just keep on repeat and repeat this song.. bu zhi bu jue.. i listen this song for 9 hours plus constantly..
i got work early in the morning 10am.. 9.15am got to wake up leh.. but.. i never slp at all.. we chat all the way till 7 plus in the morning today.. haiz.. early morning got lighting and thunder.. and i tot i gonna get strike.. the lighting is like so close to my hse.. the beam of light is so strong till i am really scare.. but.. he accompany me.. keeping me safe.. and knowing i got work.. he ask me to rest a while.. he accompany me all the way till i wake up.. coz i scare i might not be able to wake up.. tat why he pei wo all along.. first time in my life.. i feel so safe slp-ing.. even he is not by my side.. but i can sense his present.. just like he is beside me watching me when i slp.. i slept for a while, abt 1 hours plus.. did cry a lot.. tat why my eyes very pain.. but, when wake up, can hear him.. really feel very very very happy.. is that called happiness?? he never slp also.. he keep himself awake so tat he can wake me up at 9.15am.. knowing that he got plan for the day, but he still keep himself awake.. gosh.. tat was a touching one..
haiz.. bo bian.. still got to go work.. really very tired.. but still pull myself up!! every single second i dun wanna waste.. got time will contact him without fail.. but.. seem like my working today.. is a terrible one.. not much customer today.. and tat is gd.. den i start to read newspaper.. actually is playing Sudoku.. coz inside the newspaper got Sudoku.. so i play.. haiz.. den.. tat idiot came along!! arghhhhh!! tat stupid ah seng!! come and KOK my head.. and is real hard KOK u kw!! at that spot i tot i having concussion.. damn him sia!! tat xiao di di!! i older den him by few month but he die die dun wanna admit.. so childish!! he kok my head.. i ji tao take the newspaper and smack him!! not 1.. but a few time!! tat idiot!! dare to kok my head.. never die before..
haiz.. was quite hungry.. den i go for break la.. but.. dun kw why.. when i was abt to finish the food.. something inside me is wrong.. i feel like vomiting.. i haven even eat finish.. den i go throw away the food.. den i run to toilet.. i RUN and move as fast as possible.. coz i really dun feel very gd.. once i reach toilet.. haiz.. vomit lo.. what i ate.. what i drank.. all went to the ocean liao.. i vomited quite a lot sia.. my tummy feel so bad.. really bad.. the feeling when u vomit is so.. terrible!!! is like u wanted to vomit out all ur organ like tat!! terrible.. really dun kw how..
i look into the mirror for my reflection.. gosh!! is tat me?? i look so pale!! i really feel very weak.. den i slowly make my way back to mac.. rest a while.. den continue work.. but fadhilah very good la.. she let me off.. arbo i work till 5pm de.. but coz i feeling unwell.. she let me go early.. but aunty ah suan say i fake de!! liew.. so bad sia.. haiz..
so now.. i at home lo.. my tummy feeling so bad.. maybe is becoz of the vomiting bah.. making me now feeling so uneasy.. haiz.. i cannot slp!!! i gonna wait for him.. if not cannot slp safely.. haha.. haiz.. qiu ping just called me sia.. ask me go help pick up her sister.. haiz.. wrong timing!! i sick!! how to help her~ haiz.. if i not sick.. i still can help.. but if later i faint half way.. how sia.. haiz.......... *waiting in progress*
