my 365th post.. and also today is my xiao micheal de 1st dead anniversary.. and before anything.. WA LAO!! 2nd time i write this post.. coz just now press wrong thing!!!! WA LAO!!! nooooooo... all gone... T.T liew.. lazy write liao la.. write so much den gone.. sad sad.. somemore cannot recover the post.. LIEW!! T.T suan le bah!!!
ehhhhh.. today i never go school.. haiz.. gastric too pain leh.. pain till i dun wish to get out of bed.. T.T man.. 1 year i can big pain 2 time.. and one is year and one is year end.. T.T maybe this is year start bah.. sob sob.. ate my last pill just now.. T.T sob sob.. gastric better dun act up again.. if not.. no pill liao.. haha.. haiz.. if act up.. think i really need to tahan liao.. dun kw why.. recently.. gastric keep acting up.. wun stop.. ouch!!! so pain sia..
i msg cheng boon.. tell him tat i wun be able to make it to sch today.. liew.. den he go tell teacher what?? ruby got gastric pain (ya correct!!).. maybe she huai yun le.. den got baby.. MAN!!! I GONNA KICK HIS ASS TML IN SCH!! what the hell!! idiot sia.. teacher laugh.. whole class laugh.. wa liew.. tml sure no face go class liao la..
uncle wolfy! bully!! haha.. no la.. uncle wolfy very nice.. haha.. he accompany me whole day today.. so sweet of him.. oh sian.. my eye keep twitch.. T.T what will happen sia.. anyway... ytd.. yiyi.. really very good.. T.T hao gan dong wor.. he pei wo... when i need fren.. he is there.. awwwww... ai shi ni le yiyi... he pei wo audition wor!! i think.. no ppl will believe he play audition.. den when i play 188.. gosh.. he really cmi!! haha.. tat really cheer me up.. i mean.. cheer me up not as in he cannot get the move for 188.. but cheer me up as in he play aud wif me.. but den.. yiyi got play audition.. tat really surprise me lo.. coz is impossible for him this type of person to play this kind of game lo.. but den.. he make this impossible possible liao.. despite he got to wake up super early got sch... he still pei wo thru out the midnite.. den when i ask him go rest early.. he say.. nvm.. pei wo a little longer... man... really hao gan dong.. T.T yiyi... xie xie ni.. T.T is not formal.. i kw.. me and u.. dun need this kind of li jie.. but.. i really wanna xie xie ni..
i suddenly go thru what me and javier chat before in msn.. man.. all the promise he gave me.. i wonder.. will it still come true?? oh well.. only if time can dao liu... maybe.. the whole world.. wun have so much sadness... dun u all think so??
hmm.. never have nightmare today.. i told yiyi.. if i cannot slp peacefully.. i can never have a good dream.. den yiyi ask me to dream of him.. haha.. tat is yiyi.. always kw how to cheer me up when i am down.. i cannot imagine life without yiyi.. yiyi may be fierce and scary.. but.. so long u go deep enough.. u will understand.. yiyi is a nice guy.. a guy tat stand an important position in me.. a fren.. tat i never can forget.. sometime.. i did scare of telling him what happening.. why i sad.. tat day.. i am crying.. i wanna tell him... at least he can cheer me up.. but den.. i dun dare sia.. dun kw why.. i just dun like to let others worry abt me.. especially close ones... awwwww... haiz..
i force myself to eat... but i can't.. just couldn't eat much.. ytd.. i took some alcohol.. den started crying hard.. i dun kw why sia.. yc and her fren at my room.. but den.. i just dun kw why.. my room.. just suddenly lead me into depression again.. i cry hard.. real hard.. and den.. i feel this pressure inside me.. haiz.. went vomit.. T.T aiyo.. but den.. is coz i cry too hard leh.. den everything trap inside my throat.. making me feel very terrible.. but now.. i am ok leh.. only gastric super pain.. i still got one bottle of alcohol inside... but i think.. i wun drink it.. coz empty stomach.. T.T sian.. why can't i just eat.. i try to eat.. just can't feed it in..
