i am SICK!! haiz.. early in the morning.. kanna flu leh.. gosh.. now feel so terrible.. dun kw got doctor a not sia.. haiz.. nvm.. maybe rest a while can leh bah.. well.. if tml i still feel sick.. i think i gonna need to go see doctor liao.. haiz.. so sad.. 1st day of 2007... i am sick!!! what the.. how can i start a NEW YEAR like this??? oh well.. despite i am sick, i still help out my dad in the hse.. now i thinking.. he painting skill.. really so bad??? haiz.. no choice.. i got to help out ma.. den i help him get rid of all those extra de paint.. T.T man... so difficult.. i do till.. i kanna paint.. whole body got paint de thingy.. den flu feel so terrible.. got a few time, when i get down, feel like fainting like tat sia.. eye like white out.. oh well.. at least i am still alive to write this post.. so i think is ok bah...


stupid brothers.. no wonder they are twin.. die die stick together.. wth!!! wun help out de loh... arghhhhhh.. everyday must shout shout shout.. tat time shout till no voice to shout at them.. think i wun lost my voice this time.. really feel very terrible without my voice.. hard to communicate with ppl sia.. oh well.. i hope this year.. year 2007, I CAN STOP SHOUTING AT MY BROTHERS!~ haiz.. man.. i feel really sick.. maybe after this post.. i go take a bath.. den go rest a while liao.. feel kind of weak.. well.. see wat time wake up bah.. haiz..


tat stupid javier.. arghhhh.. cannot find him de sia.. nvm.. hmm.. ytd he did come find me.. oh well.. i feel really tired ytd.. cry for 1 hour.. who wun tired after tat?? haiz.. i still go down lo.. well.. dun kw where is he.. i look out for him at the spot we always at.. he wasn't there.. well.. den i think he might be at my hse downstair lo.. well.. he is there.. den i go sit there lo.. hmm.. at least he still kw how to apologise.. well.. i bring him to another part of my block.. coz my parent may come home anytime.. if let them see us, it gonna be a sleepless nite for me.. coz they sure ask a lot of stuff de.. oh well.. hmm.. we set down.. and.. he told me something abt him.. he said tat he got a twin brother.. but den.. dun kw why, he is not here anymore.. and he did told me about his condition too.. his heart got one hole.. at first.. i dun really believe.. coz i got bluff one time abt one person life.. and i gonna need to make sure everything is true.. well.. it is true.. tat what my heart told me.. hmm.. was kind of weird sitting there.. so.. i bring him to another place lo.. haha.. is just beside my block..


we chat lo.. detail... i not going to say anymore.. hmm.. stanley last day.. wasn't feeling well, is true la.. but, still got to go lo.. cannot forget him de la.. he cry sia.. i almost cry with him too.. hmmm.. we wun forget him de.. javier did not came back in the end.. "i will sneak out".. bla bla bla.. eeeeeeee!!! bian ren de!!! oh well.. nvm.. oh ya!! xiao ming did not wait for me.. den he went back home.. haiz.. den i got to walk back alone.. the road seem so long sia.. i was like sleep walking.. T.T hmmm.. tat javier!! can really slp even i not home yet??? dun kw la.. he was like so BUSYYYYYYY everyday.. wan find him also so hard.. haiz.. den.. dun find him bah.. wait for him to find me.. let see.. how long... how long i need to wait...


hmm.. he give me his words.. he said tat.. he promise to give me whatever i wan.. erm.. i dun think he can make it... he will be my one and only darling.. erm.. maybe... my future to be husband.. eh eh.. too early to think leh.. he cannot promise but he will try to be good to me.. gosh? what does he mean by this?? mean he will not be good to me??? i dun kw wor.. if i sad, he will tell me jokes... if i happy, he will give me kisses of joy.. if i sick, he will risk all his life now to take care of me.. haizzzzzzzzzzzz... i am sick now.. but where are u??? u are not here with me.. man.. u wan me to love u.. dote u... but den... i also need u to dote me and love me leh!!! T.T


haiz.. feel so sick.. nvm.. tell him also no use.. i still got to take care of myself... T.T go bath bah.. sob sob..



STUPID DAY!!!!!!