i ask ban ban.. why do guys hide stuff to girls?? well.. he said that coz they dun wan them to worry abt them.. but does the guys ever know?? when the gal kw something happen to the guy.. but the guy refuse to say what happen and only kw how to say dun worry abt them.. does they kw that it will only make the gal more worry??
i am worry abt him... i am very worry... i kw something is wrong.. i kw what will happen.. but why can't him be true.. i understand... if i dun understand.. i will just keep u at ur hse.. and dun allow u to go.. but why i let u go.. coz i understand.. but do u kw how worry am i?? i wun cry... but... hear u were laughing at the other end of the phone.. i can't hold on any longer.. what make me cry is tat.. u chose to hide the pain in urself.. and chose to laugh.... "i'm fine..." that what u kw how to say dun u?? do u think i can't feel?? i was like.. a sin... i dun wan to become a person that affect u... now i thinking.. what ur grandpa trying to hint u?? what he trying to say... over all these years... now i really dun understand.. when u said abt facing death and so.. i really cannot take it anymore.. i dun wish to cry... i kw u dun wan me to cry.. but i just can't control... i dun hate u... i just... wan u to tell me the true.. tat all.. i dun wan u to die like tat.. all those blood... and laughing u said??? do u kw how much it hurt me??? am i ur loved one?? or a treat to u??? what if someday.. somebody take me as treat to u?? what will happen to u?? i dun wan to see anyone die in front of me.. i thinking.. who am i??? am i a good or bad person??? to u??? am i someone special??? am i someone tat will bring harm to u??? am i someone that cause u in a very difficult position??? am i someone that will cause u to make a wrong decision somehow?? am i a devil??? or am i an angle??? am i someone that will change ur life??? change it to good or even worst??? who am i to u??? u said i am important to u... but... are u as important to me too??? i dun kw.. i really dun kw.. it seem like i am somebody that cause u great pain... i dun wan to hurt u... i kw.. certain thing.. u wun wan me to touch... or dun wan me to be part of it.. coz u kw.. it will somehow hurt me... but... i dun wan to be a burden to u... i wan u to be happy.. seeing u so stress.. do u think i bear to see it??? i really dun understand...
i dun kw wat to do... haiz
