well.. i in libary now... i almost fall a sleep already... gosh.. today whole day in school.... 5hours break.. haiz... just now already have 1 hour break... but now??? 4hours break in a go... oh man... i really wanna fall a sleep already... haiz....


ytd... have a terrible sleep... toss and turn.. but i still cannot get to sleep... but somehow.. fall a sleep la... haiz... i got this dream.... so weird... let me slowly recall... i dun really remember the dream... but... i remember.. there is this cat... a small one... and the cat is like trying to tell me something... hmmmm... some how i follow the cat.. till my hse kitchen.. (eh.. the dream is in my hse) eh... den the cat... inside my hse toilet.. dun kw what happen sia... den i went back to my room.. hmmm.. somehow the cat follow me... haha.. den what my mum told me was... throw tat cat away.. i dun kw what happen sia... den i follow my mum instruction lo... den i try to take the cat... the cat never attack me.. but was trying like to escape la... hmmm... i touch the cats stomach.. like trying to make the cat feel good la... like tickle the cat and things like tat... den... i got the cat up... eh... when i walk by the window.. was thinking wanna throw down a not... but i dun wan... also dun kw why got this kind of weird dream.. den.. i went back to the kitchen.. den throw inside the rubbish dump... gosh... how could i do that!!!!!!!! i can never do tat kind of stuff de lo~!~! who will bare to kill such a lovely animal... baby animal... haiz... den... i also got another part of the dream... the feeling is like talking to kusanagi... haha... maybe becoz this few day keep talking to him bah....


he is kind of sweet u kw... haha.. he said something.. make me very touching... "no matter wad no matter when as long as u stay true i'll b there for u.. i promise.." is tat a short term promise?? or a for life promise??? i dun dare to think.. dun ever dare to guess... the more i expect... the greatest fall i may had... but somehow.. he is the first one tat told me all these... haha.. what it mean by stay true??? he dun kw how to explain... well.. i think i kw what izzit... haha.. and... he give me one name... the only name tat he use to call me.. coz he said.. "ruby" sound so old... liew.... tio shoot... haha.. but nvm... at least he is being true to me.. hey... "true" maybe it mean tat be honest and never hide anything... ya.. is tat meaning i think...


hmmmmm... i read finish his blog... and... the feeling... is like what i have before.. well.. not for the relationship part.. haha.. coz me is always single.. haha.. is good.. hmmmmm... he said tat his birthday over already.. it was at the 5th of march... well.. maybe hi 21st birthday next year.. i can celebrate for him... haha... and!!! is really very true tat we are similar(eh.. am i saying this a lot of time liao???)... for eg... when he msg me, is also the time i was about to msg him... when i msg him, is also the time tat he abt to msg me too... the song we listen.. the feeling toward certain song somehow the same.. we are kind of link... i can sense him de existen... well.. how wish somebody can sense me exist too... love playing pangya with him... coz can kw a lot of thing abt him... it seem like i kw him a lot.. and he know me?? little.. hahaha.. it doesn't matter also... hmmmm.... he is a good person... (time to hide....) haha... why hide?? coz he is too good le.. tat why i must hide... well... i still remember what he told me ytd... and.. it seem like i can sense his feeling... but not really all... but i kw the feeling he is facing bah when it came to certain thing... is this a good thing?? or bad thing??? i dun kw le.... haha...


oh ya.. i remember.. he said something in pangya... but i dun quite understand the meaning... haha... den i think he act blur bah... haha... gosh... what am i keep on saying him.... haiz... 4pm den start my lesson... now den 1.21pm... how wish somebody can call my phone and chat with me... can anyone sense tat???? haha.. i dun kw... hmmmm... i wanna find more bitter de chocolate... i wanna try back the 79% cocoa de... coz tat time i eat.. dun really enjoy the taste... the more bitter the chocolate.. the more nice it is... serious... u all just have to taste the sweetest in the bitter... tat really feel good le..


oh man.... why i keep talking abt chocolate too.... one bad thing abt chocolate is that will put on weight... haiz.. nvm la.. fat fat also no ppl wan me... T.T haha...


i really very tired now... later 6pm den finish school... haiz... everyday friday... from morning 8am till evening 6pm... 1ohours~!~! den today??? 5hours break... should be 4hours de.. but teacher finish class early.. den become 5hours... haiz.... so boring... eh... feel kind of hungry also... but very sian.. dun feel like eating.. coz just now caught a bit of flu... now feeling better liao.. just now i was so giddy man~! haiz.. and.. this proved tat i and kusanagi really link.. coz he also flu... and toss and turn sleeping ytd... hahahaha... is this coincidence or are we really link??? for me to kw.. is for me to find out... so... kambatehyo~ haha...


sian.. dun kw what to write liao.. haiz... feel so down.... can anyone sense it??? sob sob...