arghhh... ytd i drunk my jolly shandy.. arghhh.. when i finish drinking.. den i found out that IT IS EXPIRED!!! wa lao eh... i wonder what will happen to me seh.. hmmm... abt 2weeks le.. it expired... arghhhh... and now... dun kw why.. i keep run toilet.. make me wanna leg soft liao la.. T.T haiz.. today whole afternoon nothing happen to me le.. but den... now... 2.08am... keep running toilet.. tummy is hurting.. T.T izzit food posioning??? arghhh.. i think.. if is food posioning.. i wun be here writing my blog liao... rite?? haha..

hmmm... when bugis today.. shop so much.. spend $120.50... haiz.. wait a miute.. it should be... $127.40... ARGHH!!! NOOOOO!!! i spend so much today... die la.. haiz.. the bus concession... so expensive.. cost me $52... haiz... bo bian also la... at least... today... let me relac.. but den.. my leg hurt.. coz i wear new shoe.. end up buy whole box of plaster... haha.. all shape and sizer seh... so cute.. lol... nvm la.. at least can let me walk whole day... i dun really like to shop.. but.. i got to buy something for school stuff ma.. haha.. a bag... well... at least i found one tat i can take... but de.. at ZINC again!!! wa liew... i found out that hoh.. this 2years.. all my bag.. AND I MEAN ALL!! all from ZINC!!! aiyo... the membership card also get till sian liao lo... haiz.. nvm!! at least i got discount today... hehehe... (*^-^*) $45.90... end up i pay $40.. abt 13% discount.. lol... extra discount for me.. oh well.. i hope this bag can stand long.. coz.. zinc bag.. i dun think can really stand long lo.. haiz... hope wun waste my money... T.T

went out with sok mui whole day.. and kw what?? she found out that hoh... a lot of ppl looking at me le... aiyo.. i dress weird meh??? why everyone look at me?? we dun kw the answer.. we dun kw why... hmmm... so... weird lo.. looking at me for what?? i very special ar?? lol... hmmm.. at bugis.. saw so many ang mo le!!! all so tall.. wa lao eh.... long time never see ppl so tall liao.. and hoh!!! got one singaporean.. SO TALL!!! abt 1 head plus taller den me le!!!! can u all believe??? i saw the girl walking behind him... so... aiyo... stand behind him macham ant like tat lo... tat guy really super tall seh!!! aiyo... long time never see so tall de people liao lo... wonder... how many more guys like tat tall de??? who knows.. lol...

well.. stand at mac after i reach yishun... stay there for 5hours plus.. till 1am plus... haiz.. father keep calling me to go home.. wanna know why?? coz i didn't bring my keys... haha.. if i never go home.. they cannot sleep... if not i cannot go home liao.. lol...

hmmmm... i dun kw why le.... it seem like... everything is so different lo.. is was like.. suddenly grow up into a totally different world.. not long ago.. i still a secondary school student... but now le.. everything is so different lo.. it was like in a totally different world.. arghhh... last time.. everything is so easy... and not stress... but now le... everything is so difficult.. so complicated... adult world... i dun dare to think... i am 17years old now... going 18 soon... and... whenever i think of what will happen in the future.. i start to scare... it start to add me stress... is not easy to be an adult... well.. a lot of stuff an adult can do... but den... adult... got so much of problem... haiz...

hmmm... i am alone... so lonely for the past 17 years.. lonely deep inside my heart... how wish there is someone that can give me warm... warm the cold ice deep inside my heart.. i started to close the gate in my heart le.. start to scare to face all the stuff.. where is the brave huiling tat i know?? when something happen... u know how to handle.. but why?? now u choose to hide... hide behind the door... and refuse to open it up?? are u afriad of the adult world out there?? well.. my answer is yes... maybe i am not ready yet..

who will have the key to open the door in my heart??? and give me warm?? give me what i dun have... give me what i wanted??? haiz... the thing i wanted is not those things tat u can find outside shop de... or money.. or what... is the feeling... the feeling of being treasure.. and love... i know that my friend had found tat feeling... but me?? haiz... not even a trace...

when other people ask me.. how many "ex" u had before... arghhh... i hate this answer... "ZERO"... tat what my answer... but den... no ppl believe me.. why they dun believe me le??? is true what.. haiz.. what i see.. is those ppl take relationship as a game.. the more u play.. the more u level.. the more gf/bf u have.. u win... i dun wan find play play de... i wan find true love de... but... true love?? exist ma??? so long as they love each other... treasure each other.. tat is true love.. izzit true?? haiz.. oh well.. i wun have the feeling of "LOVE or TREASURE".. oh man... a bf??? a guy??? haiz... nvm... even the world dun have guy... dun worry.. i wun become les.. i still a girl.. the pure blur girl tat i am always...

oh man.. why is my song... bullying me!!! why it auto play all the sad song.. T.T it making me feel so worst.. sometime... i do feel that.. everything... goes like what i feel.. sometime.. when i suddenly take my phone.. my phone will ring.. whenever i quit the game to see my msg.. a msg will come rite after i click it.. whenever i thinking of a song.. it will play it out... all like.. link to my feeling... when i am happy.. the song played is all happy.. whenever i sad.. the song all played is all sad de... arghhh... what the hell is happening??? when ever i know how to speak and know how to think.. i keep have this feeling that.. i am special.. i am very different from others.. and when i slowly grow up.. know more stuff.. this feeling getting more and more true.. who am i??? why i come to this world.. sure got one purpose de ma.. and... now.. i feel that i come is to suffer.. T.T haiz.. izzit my past life do too much sin le... tat why now so jialat... haiz...

arghhhh... everything seem so messy... haiz...


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