1st day of school: rain so big... whole body wet...
2nd day of school: got flu becoz of tat stupid rain on the first day..
3rd day of school: shoe spoilt... have to barefoot walk the whole school...
4th day of school: big rain.. whole wet... slp less den 4 hrs... and late for class for 40min... 320 people looking at me while i walk inside..
5th day of school: gastric problem.. headache.. everything come a go.. make me cannot go orientation...


my 1st week of school.. like this start.. wa lao... what a start... why like that de.. why!!! i dun understand... but den... gd tat my classmate is there... when i got problem.. sure got some people will 100% be there... eg.... eddie.. alvin.. ginger.. they will be there when something happen upon me... they are such a good fren... eddie and alvin very caring over me... got anything happen.. find them wun be wrong.. alvin was like a big brother to me.. always give me advices... as for ginger.. what a nice girl.. haiz.. at least in my class.. i still can find somebody like them.. if all my project work can do with them.. den good lo.. my group was so... arghhh... totally in a mess.. wa lao eh.. how to tahan 3 years like this.. feel so stress...

dun kw why... this one week... everyday after school... i will go to VE.. everyday abt the same... and izzit becoz of this?? i being stress?? or what?? in my body.. it seem like.. everything is running everywhere.. and haven settle down yet.. and haven found a place to settle.. tat make me so.. messy and stress.. i dun even know what is running.. and what have to do first... everything seem to be so... unclear... in this state.. i will collape anytime...

in VE... starting.. life is so great.. but.. in the back.. i started to feel uneasy... feel stress... i dun kw izzit they dui wo de qi wang hen gao... everything is so different.. kenneth.. my upline.. i trust him a lot.. but... he can't followed me in any appt. haiz.. tat really make me a great fall.. den the other managers.. i feel stress in front of them... everyone except kenneth... dun kw izzit i more close to kenneth or what... when there is kenneth around.. i feel safe... coz.. i know.. whenever something happen.. he will help me out.. this make me can tell him anything... is not really easy for me to really tell anything out in front of somebody.. but.. i feel that things started to gone wrong again... now.. i feel that i become a burden to him.. and he said tat he sick.. becoz of me... oh man.. i dun kw what happen... he refuse to tell me.. i wonder.. is he taking some responsibility for me?? or what?? why he like this!!! why!!! this is making me scare... i know i still very childish.. i cannot mature.. but.. this is not under my control.. arghhh.. this make me in a terrible state now.. i keep on making wild guesses... haiz... maybe... i shouldn't... i shouldn't have tell him so much abt myself.. i think i should keep to myself again.. i dun wan to add him anymore burden.. he seem like he already got problem to be solve.. if add mine.. he will gone insane.. he was telling me to speak out.. everything speak out.. dun let everything put inside the heart.. u will get very bad.. but den.. how am i going to let out?? when i am like a burden to u?? haiz...

aiyaya... nvm.. thing will go fine de.. rite?? oh well.. whatever.. now.. what i know is.. score gd in my poly life.. and get a cert.. hmmm.. ok.. i know what i going to do le la.. first.. finish all my homework.. den set a goal.. den.. i will be fine.. once i know where i going.. i kw what to do!!! oh come on!!! yeah yeah... i am always tat happy girl wif a smile rite?? my smile will bring sunshine to everyone.. so... JIAYOU!!! yeah yeah..

hmmmm.. so many project.. haiz..