was so tired today... my dad change a new bed for me... i can't sleep properly.. it feel so hard the bed!!! my body ache so much... den work morning.. first time work morning in the weekdays seh... dun really have enough sleep.. cannot even sleep properly.. haiz.. tot wake up can see xiong reply.. but never.. haiz.. why should i send so much msg to him ytd?? explain and mean nothing to him after all..

well.. today work... dun have customer.. was so sleepy when working... i can use all the time to make paper crane... from big to small to tiny.. really have a lot of time to do a lot of bo liao de thing lo... but.. keep on feeling like falling asleep anytime.. haiz.. energy very low liao..

today work.. i ask for go off early.. coz.. i wanan go hospital see ivy... lucky they let me off at 5pm... den i faster rush home change den rush to hospital liao... well.. really very worry abt her.. hmmm... when saw her.. well.. at least can put a stone down.. she look fine.. but.. a bit weak... fever also up and down.. well.. i bought something for her also.. hope she will get well soon... well.. heard her mum said tat.. maybe she can go home tml.. depend what the doctor say... well.. i kw she will be fine.. when on the way to TTSH.. i lost my way... haiz.. but.. at least i still find my way to ivy.. hmmm... stay till 8 plus.. coz visiting hour till 8pm nia.. den we stay a little while more at there.. ivy also need to rest... cannot stay too long.. hehe..

haiz.. daniel they all.. keep teasing me.. saying me and xiong la.. bla bla bla.. saying me this and tat... make fun of me la.. well.. nvm.. at least it make ivy happy.. oh well.. they wan say what let them be bah... ivy happy can le.. well.. at hospital.. also keep yawning.. really very tired..

when reach yishun.. i bough milk shake.. haiz.. also very sian... dun kw what to do.. where to go.. hmmm... let me see.. mui and me went to baleno... saw some short... hmmm.. thinking on buying le.. den can wear it when go poly.. but.. end up i buy some t-shirt... mui say tat i dun have collar shirt.. den i buy 2 collar shirt lo.. haiz.. the colour is making me so headache... end up.. buying no colour de.. haiz.. black and white lo.. common colour.. bo bian.. dun kw what to buy liao...

hmmmm... saw my fren nick... "fair" what does this word mean le?? well.. if something is agaist ur will.. and other people do better den u.. u will think is not fair.. the word "fair" is only a excuse... what actually happen is... u r not tat skillful den others.. u dun wish to accept the fact tat u r a loser.. u dun wish to accept the fact tat others is better den u.. den u will use the wor "unfair".. coz.. u dun wan to listen to the fact... well.. all this just came across my mind.. haha... everything.. is up to a person to think.. wheather in a positive.. or negative.. nobody will want to have a disadvantage to themself rite?? everybody wan to win.. they always think tat they are right... so when somebody appear to be stronger, they refuse to accept the fact.. different people got different kind of thinking.. but when things happen, no people will have the time to think abt all this.. only when u have no trouble in ur heart.. and u got a lot of time.. den u will slowly think of everything.. what is right and what is wrong.. what should u react when things happen.. but.. when thing really happen.. u will be lost completely... u wun have the time to think.. even u have, ur heart cannot calm down to think... everything need to settle in a calm and correct way... if Yi Qi Yong Shi.. thing will came out in a negative way.. hmmm.. so everything must handle with calm-ness..

sian.. tml have to work le.. i only have to work for 2 days, den i can be free... tml.. and sunday... after tat.. i dun need to work le.. finally i can rest till i like le.. coz.. hardly got a good rest.. enrolment.... look like have to be alone after all.. yiyi like this show his coldness to me.. think he will 4get the promise of going to my poly for enrolment with me... haiz... nvm... i rather go alone den seeing his coldness towards me... hmmmm... Ngee Ann.... a new life will start.. with no friend i kw... with no one i kw... with a totally unsure place.. no family.. no nothing.. is like alone in a new world.. dun kw everything... oh well.. maybe is a new life for me bah.. must get over with it.. even there is no one u kw there... U ALSO MUST TAKE IT!! 3 years.... haiz... dun kw will anti-social there a not le.. T.T so scary... i dun even kw how to go to Ngee Ann... haiz... haiz.. haiz... what a life.. will it be a sweet one for me??? or a terrible life?? i dun dare to think... i only can wish... hope.. 3 years... haiz.. sian... nvm.... cannot expect it to be so wonderful rite?? everything will be fine... i kw it.. my star will be looking over me rite?? even in the day.. i kw u still in the sky looking over me... so... protect me well... ensure tat i wun get hurt another time... i will be looking for u when the night fall.. so.. dun hide... be there everytime i need u... k la.. time for bed le.. have to settle poly stuff tml.. den still have to work.. oh man... how wish... can slp longer..