hmmm... ytd nite... xiong make me so angry... haiz... all those smoking... make me so sad... almost make me cry in my bed.... den early in the morning.. woke up... feeling so tired.. and refused to wake up... just continue stay in my bed for a few hours... when wake up... chat with yiyi lo... den go maple play with yiyi... but... kanna scold for nothing... i talking to yiyi in wisper... den... dun kw is boss or his son... should be his son... scold me and yiyi sia... sian.. my mood gone even down as i heard something tat i dun wish to heard...
den kw tat yiyi never work.. arghhh... den i called yiyi for lunch lo... den tat xiong le.. so dao... sian... den i log out liao... after tat.. i met yiyi... den saw xiong... haiz.. waste my msg... well.. when saw xiong... recalled abt ytd smoking incident... haiz.. den sad liao... i gone very very quiet... coz dun kw what to say... den... yiyi and xiong keep talking... abt PS la... newspaper la... manager la... girl la... whatever... sian.. my mood even down... dun feel like talking anymore... den when go mac... arghhh... i also keep quiet... stanley tot anything happen to me sia... haiz... got a bit feel like crying when sitting inside mac... feel like staying alone... starting start work.. also no mood... talk also feel very uneasy... also can't smile... at nite.. den i feel better.. smile also back...
i feel i grow up again... coz... my feeling... tell me... i grow up le... my feeling tell me... i think too much le.. i dun even dare to tell... in the whole world i only can tell rongwei... coz... he is the only one i can turn to.. and tell everything... i only kw how to cry?? why!!! i feeling so bad now... everytime... tears... will make me lose something... haiz... xiao michael.. why u wan to die so early?? if u never die... i kw.. u will listen to me... but now.. i only can miss u... xiao michael.. do u kw??? if i confess... maybe.. i wun be so close with him anymore... maybe he wun treat me as a fren anymore... he will keep a distance from me... i feel i thinking so much... maybe he only treat me as a close fren.. a sister... maybe i too sensitive... i always so sensitive... i make a lot of thinking this few days, i keep thinking wan or dun wan... people will say.. say la.. why not... xiao michael.. u kw why??? i told u b4... when u r still alive... how wish... xiao michael....
Wo Hao Xi Huan Ni Ah.... how wish i can say this out to u... do u kw??? after so many months... spend with u... i kw... everything is so clear... these few years thinking is all clear... very clear... i am very happy... very happy to kw u... u play an important role in my life... what i wanna say is... i really like u... thx for being with me all the while.. Xie Xie Ni... Arigato...
