bloggee... i never had this fear before... never...!!! i dun kw wat happen.... i now very scare.. izzit a dream or wat??? i check the calander.... and i think.... think is not a dream.... i slept for less den 5hours... and my dream..... like a few days.. tat dream... is so scary... is not a ghost or wat... is just that... i dream tat yiyi and xiong dun wan me anymore... things change so fast... starting... xiong and i were running... dun kw fm who... and to where... but... i kw that... it is a happy thing.. and not a sad thing... nor a scary thing... but... just like one flash of light... so fast... everything change~
the song "Right Here Waiting" keep going on and on in my mind... and in my dream~ i dun kw wat happen... but i kw that i am totally hurt... i kw that yiyi and xiong dun wan me... i also dun kw why... it hurt so much.. i was at CPCC... den suddenly... got a girl voice... talk to me.. said that xiong dun wan me anymore~ he choose another girl... i dun kw why.... i was like.. shock.. stunt... and cannot do anything but crying... i keep crying non-stop... and it was really very hurt... i tot of calling yiyi... but... yiyi was ignoring me... no matter how i call... he ignore me... he do heard me crying.. but... he didn't ask anything... not a thing... den... i dun kw wat to do... the voice... like keep saying me... no ppl will help u... u r alone now... u just a baby... cannot live without others... and so on... i went crying non-stop in my dream.... i was alone.. sitting next to the pond in CPCC and cry.. and the song... keep repeating and repeating... den... i woke up... i know that i woke up already... but... my eye cannot open... den i dun kw why... i started crying... crying when i am awake... i kw tat i am crying.... tear is flowing out... but.. my eye not yet open... and the song... "Right Here Waiting" keep on repeating... again........
when i open my eye... i found out that i just slept for less den 5hours... i see the calander... hope that i was just dreaming.... and i somehow... think that i am dreaming... i msg xiong... but... he didn't reply... i now stilll cyring... nearly 1hour now... my tear still flowing out... the fear.... i dun kw... very scary... when i wake up, my mind is blank... i just keep on crying and crying... i cannot stop it... i hope that it was really a dream... but.. xiong... never reply me... i dun kw wat i going to do now... i only kw that... without yiyi and xiong... without them in my life... i dun kw wat i will happen... wat trouble i'll get... i just hope that this dream..... hope is just a dream.... a dream that wun appear to be real... my mind is very messy now... i got no one to turn to... coz.. they all still sleeping... i only kw that... bloggee.. u the best.. whenever i need someone to talk to.. u will always be here... thxs...
Wherever You Go, Whatever You Go, I Will Be Right Here Waiting For You.......
